on the way home from work today, I stepped into the bus, scanned each row for an empty seat, and noticed that there were 3 larger individuals who each had no one sitting next to them. I was pretty tired and wanted to read, so I indicated to one of them, a woman, my intention to sit
she sheepishly shoved herself closer to the window, closing her body away from me as I carefully pinned my body to the inside of the outer armrest of the row of seats
I immediately wondered if I made her feel repulsive by trying not to touch her, that I was irritated by the fact that she was taking up her seat and a bit of my own too
I thought about whether she felt more anxious about now needing to be cognizant of not pressing into my space,
or whether she was relieved that I sat next to her and didn’t gauge her as someone so large that we couldn’t fit in the row together
human dignity — how could I have best honored hers?